Monday, August 25, 2014

Worries

It's that time again. Scary death and sadness time. I hate how that shit just creeps up all random. It's not my first time around the block, so it always feels like that annoying old friend that is too pathetic to be angry with but still rubs your last nerve completely raw. Gramps' cancer doesn't seem like no big deal these days. He has an infection, doesn't sound like a major one. It's not good news though. Boyfriend's uncle just passed...after like 3+ years of cancer I should say. He wasn't just a trooper...more like a ranger. Our friend (our age!) has cancer now too. His is the not-so-scary more-just-shitty kind, but still. Even I had a scary instance a couple years ago. What is it that's giving us all cancer? Can we get rid of that now, please? I know NASA, ebola, and wars are important and everything. But personally, I would appreciate a little more effort in the what-is-really-killing-us-all-off department.



I know death is part of life, but that doesn't make it easier for me to deal with. I could cry at my work desk right now thinking about it. It's so easy when you're far away to focus on the things and people right in front of you. Even when the things and people you love most are some where else. I'm really glad to be going to Albuquerque for Christmas. That's all really. Just glad.


For a bit of good news, my parents will be here to visit in just 2 weeks!
With love,
Ellie