Thursday, December 1, 2016

Travel Journal: Giving Up and Our Friend Jerry

Morning View
I really want to give up. I'm just so frustrated. I finally got stuck with the girls alone for 12 hours. After the 12 hours, they were late getting ready for school so I had to yell at them and work another 15 minutes. I kinda got angry with them when it wasn't really their fault. Due to some other craziness in their schedule, they were late to start getting ready. But, I had still been 'on shift' with them for already 12 hours and I don't care if a hurricane made them late, I was going to be angry about it. I felt bad I wasn't more patient but I also know I'm only myself and I can only talk myself into being patient for so long. Especially in the morning. Especially before coffee and shower. Especially before seeing Angelo and making sure he's alright as he was sick the night before. It all felt like a lot and too much. 
Now, I'm just starting to wind down and think about showering and getting ready. Annnnd I have a class in 20 minutes. I'm not sure I'm going to give up. I just know right now I want to.

Maybe I need to be like our wolf spider friend Jerry who stays in his spot behind my clothes all day. Even when I attempt to sho him off. Even when I move things around and make him uncomfortable. Jerry sticks to his commitment and stays put.

Wish me luck,
E
Evening View